When the time finally came to have sex, I learned that my partner was also a virgin, which provided me some relief and calmed my nerves. So, the morning of my appointment, I shaved my ass while I took a shower and trimmed my pubic hairs to make myself presentable. However, I was still aware of the expectations of many people, and I had done a little research on giving oral and bottoming the night before to make sure not to embarrass myself. I had never done anything sexual or romantic before, so I was extremely nervous. the following day, and I woke up early to prepare my room and my body. Because of this desire, I messaged this mystery man, who I correctly assumed to be another student, asking for a hookup and a picture of himself. Normally, I avoid people on dating apps if they don’t have any pictures for safety reasons, but in this particular moment, I wanted to lose my virginity based on unhealthy parameters I had set for myself. The day before, I went against my typical behavior and messaged a blank profile on Grindr. I lost my virginity a couple of weeks before my 19th birthday.
